Mama Not Mama
You're not my mother
I can't call you everyday and ask you questions
I can't yell at you
I can't curse at you
I can't blame you for what happened and hold it against you
Tears stinging my cheeks knives cutting my skin
You screaming crying asking me what you should do
You're not my mother
You're not some lady who I never had a mother daughter experience with anyway
I don't know what to do with something I've never had
I dont know how to treat a mother
What do I do? Sure I've watched others time and time again, but I can't seem to master it
All I can say is "Mama let's go here", "Mama you're ignoring me", "Mama please answer your phone"
Because in reality that's all I wanted to say when I was a child
But I'm not a child anymore