Watching watching me i know you are there lord

feeling feeling what you are pulling me toward

It seems since iv strayed on this path of my own

youv left me to sit between rock and stone

my once always ups and beauty it seems

has gone dull gone away no longer it gleams

so love me not lord cuz it hurts my dreams

of furtune and fame

that i never will claim

the gifts that youv given seem no longer of use

leading me nowhere but to hurt and abuse

this smile so fake my hands how they shake

my soul crying for you

lord i know not what to do

so here im done im down on my knees

what do i do tell me please

every way i turn i see dark ahead

no longer able to see tears i shed

i cant tell anymore who im trying to find

all i know is your love is one of a kind

but love me not lord cuz it hurts me so

so much more then this world ever could know

so you said if i called if ever youd answer

well help me now lord its spreading like cancer

i refused to be infected

children of god arent neglected

i was showing my "pride"

i was dieing inside

to be the happy beautiful girl i used to be

who id look in the mirror smile and see

it hurts so much knowing that grace

can still be found in your embrace

yet im too ashamed to speak

in your presence im weak

so love me not

cuz it hurts