What does that mean?

“All I need”

What do you mean?

“All I need”

The word in itself creates discomfort and fear.

The word, NEED, is nothing but hurt for me.

The idea of NEEDING something or someone drives me crazy.

I do NOT understand what it means!

By definition it is simply, “require (something) because it is essential or very important”.

For me, NEED is a word of broken trust and support.

For me, NEED is a word that I do not say enough.

Unlike others I hide from what I NEED.

I do not make myself a priority and maybe that should be key.

I’ve always thought that needing somebody required trust and a supportive team.

But, I’m learning I must take that back in order to live in peace.

I must say what I indeed NEED.

You were not there for me emotionally.

You were not there for me…

The hardest times of my life I struggled,

To the point where I lost me.

I forgave you, yes.

I appreciate you, Always.

But when is it time for me…

You look at me with pity…

You do not comfort me…

The main person in my life

And you were not there for me.

But, wait you love him even though he caused you pain…

You cherish him even though he caused you hell and pain!

You consoled him even though he caused us all of these things!!!

You were there for him when he was wrapped in chains.

Yes, he is the first heir born when you were sixteen.

Yes, he is someone you cannot live without!

I know you are human and make mistakes, yes.

I forgave you and said, ok…

You provide for me and cherish my success.

Therefore, I hid in the dark and never expressed this.

Where were you?

I was in my darkest times.

Didn’t want to do anything but cry.

Storm of tears expressed as pain and agony.

The emotional struggle I endured was because you’re vain.

Did you care at all?

Really did you care at all?

A’s and B’s are not enough for you?

8 Honors but, NOPE that is not enough.

I took on responsibility.

You know why!!

You just don’t want to see…

You’re indifferent attitude towards me hurt so bad…

But, what can I do, only be sad?

That’s not fair. Not fair at all.

You hurt me. But, you don’t see that?

I have to be molded into perfection. You make me.

You love and cherish my accomplishments.

But, you! You were not there for me.

Now you see I don’t know the word, “need”.

My mind and heart was taken advantage of.

I never thought I was or would be good enough.

You are the lioness.

I am the cub.

You protect me, yes.

You provide for me, yes.

You love me, yes.  

But, you were not THERE for me.

I needed you... and you did not answer me.

I needed you... and you did not hug me.

As time went by… I tried to figure out why.

As time went by… I pushed you out of my life.

But, then I began to realize…

I can’t change you.

Instead,

I forgive you. I forgive you because all I need is you.