Legacy of my Life Continued
Mom,
remember when you said you would rather have your girlfriend than me?
well I hope that you are feeling stupid now as stupid as stupid could be
cause i'm on top now and noone is on top of me
Do you wish you could be
standing right here next to me?
Well you can't unless you can go back in time
and feed me those lies
for me to be able to believe you when I look in your eyes
and you tell me that I am your son and you will always love me
well now i know the truth
and the truth is always ugly
oh well what can I do
but live my life as best as I can without you
It's bad enough that I never met my dad
but losing you
made me not be able to feel sad anymore
Deep down inside my core
I always felt a little humiliated
and that part of me always felt more than a little mutiliated
but I sat down and I contemplated
I came up with the conclusion
That it is better if I left my heart gated
And sitting behind those bars my heart just waited and waited
And I felt it
I felt my ability to love disappear as it slowly faded
but I tell my self everyday that i'm lucky I made it
but you just sit back and listen to what you have created
cause I won't stop
I won't stop until my hunger for revenge is
sated