Legacy of my Life Continued

Mom,


remember when you said you would rather have your girlfriend than me?


well I hope that you are feeling stupid now as stupid as stupid could be


cause i'm on top now and noone is on top of me


Do you wish you could be


standing right here next to me?


Well you can't unless you can go back in time


and feed me those lies


for me to be able to believe you when I look in your eyes


and you tell me that I am your son and you will always love me


well now i know the truth


and the truth is always ugly


oh well what can I do


but live my life as best as I can without you


It's bad enough that I never met my dad


but losing you


made me not be able to feel sad anymore


Deep down inside my core


I always felt a little humiliated


and that part of me always felt more than a little mutiliated


but I sat down and I contemplated


I came up with the conclusion


That it is better if I left my heart gated


And sitting behind those bars my heart just waited and waited


And I felt it


I felt my ability to love disappear as it slowly faded


but I tell my self everyday that i'm lucky I made it


but you just sit back and listen to what you have created


cause I won't stop


I won't stop until my hunger for revenge is


sated

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