A LAST GOOD BYE

When i said 'good bye'. I didn't want to say that . But there was something holding me back. There was something pushing me not to look back. I didn't want this to be done this way. I never wished that we'd come so far that we forget ourself. Loving you was never a challenge. It was something i could at least do for you. It was something beautiful. Something i learned from you. Something i always wanted. Praying for my luck, praying for me, praying for my future , you just somehow forgot that there was 'you' also. Maybe that's what love demands forgetting yourself completely that you never existed, never. I tried my best to make you happy , but i always made it worst and worst. I somehow forgot that there was 'you' also who was also devastated. I am sorry. I tried my best but not best best that you tried for me. I am sorry. I didn't want this to be end. But maybe i am the bad luck for everyone. I am sorry. I was bad luck for you. I am sorry. I don't know what to say right now. My mind is blank right now. I broke your trust. I am sorry. I made everything worse. I am sorry . But you know you were always my first thought and last thought. You still are. Maybe after this things will be different from now. I never wished this. I am sorry. Night was hard. But maybe i should be habitual. I am sorry. I was never the man you always dreamt for . I am sorry. I love you.