"L O G I C"
how do you convince
a kid who feels like
their whole life is
a waste not to kill
themself?
convince the kid that thinks
that their not going
to be anything to
stop cutting?
how can you stop
us from feeling
this way?
almost every night,
i lie my head
on my bed-
restless,
staring in the
dark- or maybe
a screen.
i daydream
about nothing,
i stare blankly
into the air.
sometimes hoping
that over-the-counter
drug thats in my
body kills me.
sometimes i wish
that i wont wake
up in the morning,
or maybe ever
again.
im being
eaten alive by
my own thoughts.
i feel like ill
never be anything
ill never make it
ill never succeed.
but its me,
im doing it to
myself.
i let those
insecurities and
the self-consciousness
take over my
body until its
no longer mine.
its not mine
anymore,
its theres.
they took over
for me.
they'll make the
decisions now.
i lie down and
feel like death
is the thing
that makes
sense.
that it's the
only thing that'll
bring happiness
to me-
that its the
only answer.
but i've
called several
times,
and nobody
answered.