Its Kinda Funny


)You know its kinda funny.

I always hear “in a near death experience, your whole life flashes before your eyes”

That shit didn’t happen to me.

I was more concerned about my parents being upset about the car, than me actually loosing my life.

I was more worried about how I was gonna get to class in the morning, to work in the evenings, hell even going back to my hometown, with my homegirls, in my own world---then being close to put in a grave.

Now im sitting here realizing that maybe I value others, more then I value myself.

Whatever the case maybe,  positive or a negative, whose there to vaule ME like I do them.

Maybe im just ranting, but at the end of the day, after all fun and games.

Who will be there standing by my side when i don’t have pot to piss in, or paper to wipe my ass with.

You know its kinda funny.

Everyone wants to feel good, but no one wants to put in the effort to make someone else’s day.

And then you have people like me, that would sacrifice anything if it meant making it easy for someone else.

It blows me

You know its funny how when you got your shit together everybody in your face wanting to be your friend, but the moment your struggling you see more shadows closed doors then welcoming hands a shoulder to lean on.

And maybe its just me and my life but im sure someone can relate how love quickly turns to hate. And friends turn into strangers. And family turns to enemies.

This shit is really funny.

And the funniest thing of all….is that im not laughing


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