It's Hard to Believe
It's hard to believe that a girl like me is Flawless.
There are so many things that feel about myself,
That are just....not.
I don't physically flawless.
I can point out everything I hate easily,
But I guess everyone can do that too.
I'm not flawless emotionally or mentally.
I have low self esteem.
When you see me, you can't see it on the outside.
I am hiding it with a confident look and my head held high.
But really, I'm worried on the inside.
Because I can't help to wonder what people are thiking of me.
I think,
"I look awesome today!
Someone has to think that I look cool too!
That's silly...
No one thinks I'm cool.
I am just imaginating it all."
And when I am talking to a stranger, it is even worse.
I am alwas cautious and stumbling over my words.
And when I leave,
I end up hating myself a litte bit more.
It's hard to beleve that a girl like me is Flawless.
In my eyes,
Because I see all of the bad in me.
I end up shaping myself with my negativity,
And become blind to the good.
That I am creative.
Drawing,writng,and coming up with new ideas are the highlight of my day.
When I used to come home with paint on my fingers,
I felt so accomplished.
I'm unique too!
And I love it.
I don't want to be like everyone else.
I want everyone to see me for... well...me.
I always try to be loving.
No matter who the person is!
Unless someone hurts another on purpose.
Then they will have issues with me.
I don't judge.
I have been judged many times in my life for things out of my control.
So I always try not to do that to others.
I am a nerd!
And I mean that in a loving way.
I love that am a fan of all the things that I am passionate about!
I love being in the fadoms with others with the same passion.
I absolutley adore my hair.
Most of the time it is silky and smooth...
When it's not being a mane straight off a lion.
The color is bright and dark,
And it's finally grown the length have been hoping for.
I really like the color of my eyes.
They are a dark navy gunmetal blue,
Like God took a part of the sky when it is starting to turn dark,
And added strands silver from the moonlight,
With just a speck of golden stardust on the side.
Huh...
Looking back through all of this...
Even though I don't feel like it most of the time...
I have a lot of good qualities as well.
Alright, maybe I am not without Flaws...
But now..
I can believe that girl like me can be Flawless!