I tell myself if 18 years ago, you decided to take that trip to the clinic i wouldn't be mad at you/   you had three kids already, the youngest was just starting school/  but you provided for us all and i commend you for that./   for your life sacrifices i can never pay you back./ but those decisions were yours to make./ you decided to have four kids that you hate/  i'm sorry we stole your youth and spotlight/ and you barely finished highschool so you're not that bright/  im sorry you felt the need to compete with your own daughter / a real mother supports come hell or high water/    i didn't ask to be born into this crazy world/   mother you were suppose to guide and encourage your little girl/  instead i feel you hate that i've done better than you in life/  i know with four kids you endured a lot of strife/ there was no manual written on how to do this shit/ but where was the love? i really needed it/ I know it wasn't easy so i give you a break/  i hope one day you realize that decision you made 18 years ago wasn't a mistake/ i'm going to do a lot with the life you gave me/ thank you for bringing me into this world, i know it wasnt easy