It was Nothing. Really.

Its as if time stopped and I was in control of everything.

I made everything bend to my will.

I made every move. I controlled the world.

But it all went by so fast. I couldn’t have enough. I wasn’t satisfied.

When everything turns out for the best and when things go your way.

The feeling you get. The rush of chemicals to every part of your body.

You feel empowered and unstoppable. This is the best feeling in the world.

Nothing can stop you. And thats exactly what happens. Nothing happens next.

Nothing stops everything. Nothing takes every move back. Only one thing it leaves.

The memory of the experience. As you remember you hunger for this feeling.

Replace everything to try and recreate it. But it all ends in failure.

After the failure its time to step back. Step back and play fair.

Play the game of life the way it was meant to be played. The want, the addiction to the feeling will never go away.

Maybe its not meant to come back. Maybe it is. There’s nothing to be done but move on.

This experience is what I yearn for. To have the world back in my hands.

To be the most joyful person in the world. The waiting game has already begun.

All I can do is play the right cards. And hope that nothing will stop me.



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