I am not one to trifle with,

I am not one to steal.

Even though it’s tempting to do so,

It is the devil with whom I won’t make a deal.

I dare you to challenge me,

Yes I dare you to try.

But with him it is different

It is him that makes me cry.

With him I am weak,

But with him I am happy.

Is it wrong of me to run?

Is this unhealthy?

I want to love like everyone else,

But I just can’t stand to be judged.

I like to look strong,

But love to be hugged.

I want to reach the stars,

But at the same time I have thoughts,

And hopes that maybe we can go far.

But I hear a voice in my head

Telling me to leave him.

I hear it every time I rest my head,

On my pillow alone when the lights dim.

But if he’s there with me

And I lay my head on his chest.

I feel strong and happy

And there is nothing to fret.

Is this really worth it?

Or am I crazy inside?

It’s a miracle I'm here,

Because I wanted to die.

But here I am with confusion

Because the pain was so strong,

I am brand new to feelings.

I've felt lost all along,

And I don’t want to want him.

But in a way its like I’m healing,

He makes me feel like I belong.

And my heart is what he is stealing.

And he causes me stress.

But he gives me such joy,

God, is this just a test?

I wonder if this is a ploy.

But this time I won’t run.

Lord, please hold my hand,

And I pray he’s The One,

Who will put a ring on my hand.