Intents and Purposes

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39440
United States
31° 41' 41.6076" N, 89° 7' 45.6096" W

For all intents and purposes,
I am a mess,
Like a child's finger painting is art,
And like a child, I'm a little too confident
To be meandering around like I know
Where I'm going
Because I don't know where to go,
Kind of like an outdated GPS
That refuses to update,
I am the upside
To a cheap computer you got
At a pawn shop,
I am valuable enough
To be won for a thousand dollars,
And I am a pawn,
In my own chess games,
Where pieces are worth fingers,
Counting every loss,
Knowing being reimbursed,
Is as likely as being the boss.
I am a king-- not a queen,
For all intents and purposes
Because I control too little,
Responsible for too much;
Each step is calculated,
Like a child's finger painting is art.

I am a moment in time,
And a forever printed on the web
This is our legacy,
Electronically recorded,
And for all intents and purposes,
Your ignorance does not mean we are
Failures.
Just like being a pawn
Doesn't make me useless.
You don't understand the extent
Of my intentions,
My purposes are not yours to criticize,
I am a child,
For all intents and purposes,
I am a child who thinks her finger painting
Is art,
Because good art is about feelings,
And feelings are honest,
And for all intents and purposes,
I would rather be honest.

What you don't understand is
This is our legacy,
Electronically recorded.
Like a moment in time,
You will witness me,
But you will warp me into your image
Of what you inferred from what you
Witnessed,
Not anticipating that I am a mess,
Like a child's finger painting is art,
Because I am the result
Of a billion situations
Condensed into a GPS
That refuses to update.

The upside to this situation,
Is that like a child's finger painting is art,
I express not what other people expect,
But from what's in my heart.

This poem is about: 
Me
Our world
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