where do I began ?
i offered love he ran .
i offered commitment
then get nothing but disrespect , lies , heartache , and disappointment .
i stopped trying and said fuck it all .
knowing that i was lieing to myself and hurt because he let me drop when i took a big fall .
finally got over all the bullshit !
so done not gonna take ANYMORE of it .
tried to do what he did
playing around and talking to alot of people
that got me no where .
i was lost and i realized i wasn't fully over him .
tried again then he fucked me over and dated my best friend .
she was like a sister to me
and you didn't even say im sorry .
"fuck him ! guys ain't shit !" thats what i said constantly .
but i knew it wasn't true he was just the one that hurt me deeply .
then i turned reckles and into a damn monster .
i can't blame it all on him because i did those things .
i felt so fucked up and confused .
i thought about the old me who wanted the fairytale and perfect guy .
then reality bitch slapped me and let me know thats not always true .
you have to sometimes struggle to get the grand prize.
thats when i opened my eyes .
everyone isn't bad it just him .
i've done crazy things but thats part of life .
i've loved and lost .
i tried to seek love in all the guys i've been with .
i went about love the wrong way .
all girls want is love and affection .
i want that too and some day when the time is right i will .
my dream guy will find me but for now i will take all of the things from my past and channel it to something positive
now i finally reall that ...
now im a stronger person .