you are killing me

i want to die because of you

yes i know your going to say "shut up" or "yeah right you're just an attention whore."

well i'm not going to kill myself

 

but i am

im dying inside

you were my best friend

and you ripped that away from me in a split second

 

why would you do that?

why would you break my heart into a million pieces

and then not give a damn

i love you and you hate me

 

you would rather be friends with the popular girls

so that you aren't picked on

or just so you can pick on the nerds

so you can pick on people like me

 

the people who cut,

starve,

get sick,

and are just flat out depressed

 

so you can just back stab another girl

who just wants a friend

who just wants to be loved

and not judged

 

a girl who loves with her heart

and not her head

a girl who trust you with everything

and then soon enough you're telling everyone

 

how she cuts

how she trusts

how she starved herself

how she's bi or lesbian

 

you're going to break her bit by bit

until there's nothing left to break

just like you will do to me

you're going to tell all my secrets and then I will never exsist again

 

i will-one day-take my life

and it might be, because of you

you spreading my secrets

or maybe it's just because of this moment

 

just because you broke my heart.

you killed me inside

you killed the last bit of love i had

the last bit of trust i had

 

and just stabbed me in those places in my heart

so i could never love again

so i could never trust again

i'm just going to be a ball of sad once again

 

i WAS starting to be happy again

i WAS clean again

i WAS eating normal again

i WAS bring down my walls of trust and love again

 

but you brought it all back

im not happy anymore

im not clean anymore

im not eating anymore

 

im bringing my walls back up again.

you did all of this to me

but of course

"i never cared a bout you"

 

which is a load of crap

but it's okay

if im not there on monday

youll know why now

 

youll have this in your head

but you wont tell anyone

youll just say

"she was the greatest friend"

 

and never remember me again.