what is worse
feeling sad, lonely, worthless, ugly, horrible...
or feeling nothing at all?
i told myself i was recovering
this is recovery
but a little part of me is saying that this is not recovery
this is an angel mask on a demonic entity
this is a bandaid on an open wound cut deep to the bone
this is nothing but a mere cap
on the emotions that are bubbling inside of me
the sadness, the ager, the confusion, the anguish, the hopelessness...
but no such caps can stay on forever
and im afraid
whe mine finallty shatters
and the bubbling emotions go flying
it will all be like it was
but...i want to be better...