As much as I'm trying to keep myself on the ground

It's hard to hear people who have never experienced it talk about it

As if you wake up one day & have a choice

As if it's all a combination of good times and bad times

In the past month I've learned that there are many moments when I have to disconnect

A lot of that is when you speak

Because I take you in so deeply

And I let you affect me in a positive way but equally, definitely more, in such a negative way

All people have ever been is logical

And then you came and changed everything

I didn't feel before you were here

But since I never had experienced it 

It wasn't something that I ever missed

I have to stray my eyes to protect my heart

It's hard for me to believe in weightless words like "love" when I hardly feel it