Dear Jarrod,

 

Reflection.

 I don't know if you realized what yesterday was.

it would have been our 2 year anniversary.    

We fought all the time.

We loved one another like no one else would.

 You lived far and I traveled far.

You told me you loved me-then lied.

I wanted to die inside.

We were explosive.

Magnetic to one another.

Little did we know we were both the same charge.

Polarized.

but I wish you the best.

 

Heart.

You made me feel things

I do not know that I shall ever feel again.

I cried every night over you.

Held on to every pretty little lie.

But I still wished you the best.

 

Sorrow.

Sometimes when my dad came to wake me

after driving over 10 hours to see you

he´d see me lay there clutching an empty tissue box.

with an emptier heart;

but I still wished you the best.

 

Questions.

I do not know whether if I cried or laughed more with you.

You ruined my idea of love.

You lied.

Cheated.

Stole.

Manipulated.

Abused.

And worst of all, left me.

Even then I wished you the best

 

*ring ring*

No answer once again.

As I lay there holding my tears.

 

every now and then have flashbacks

 things you said to me,

I wished you the best as you told me to go rot in hell.

 

I´m sad you did not keep any of your promises to me.

I am sad often wishing I could trust- not hear you in the back of my mind.

 

You were my anxiety.

I hope you learn to love one day,

I hope that you succeed.

 

But I will shine.

You were a blimp of my timeline

That slow danced with me

And pressured me.  

 

So I wish you the best.

 

An Old Friend,

   Gina