I try, thats what I do. My fear of failure pushes me to always go above and beyond. The need to be satisfied with myself comes forward like tsunami. And then my mouth shoots open, challenging others, challenging myself to the ridicoulous. Any goal isn't high enough. It's never good enough I push myself constantly hoping one day to satisfy. I want to one day just not try. To not have to prove anything to anybody and just smile. But that day is still a long way.