How do I bring the Courage to say it, to say my stomach turns sour when I say your name if I even bring you up. Its like my attitude switch to happy to mad all of a sudden all i can see it red anger fills my mind words turn angry i go from defending you to cursing your name every time i hear it i think it i feel it i remember  all the loving the Memories all the I Love you’s how much i loved you how much i dreamed of marrying you having a family with you is all of a sudden gone your gone and all you left me with is a broken heart and the lost of hope of finding someone like you who gave me that feeling of being loved i never got from my mother or father I guess you were just a one time thing