I Thought Too Much
I can't help but think of the moment
When my loved ones will be gone, it will be over
When I won't have a wall or cover
When I lose my final lover
I know that pen and paper will be my solace
But life will be over more or less
Sure I'll have ideas and words full of pain
Flooding through the gates inside my brain
But it will be a vicious attack
That won't lack the proper tactical advantages
To tear me down from the inside and out
Till nothing's left but a sound
A whisper of a voice crying out from the dark
You can't tell it and silence apart
But it's there and you need to take care
To focus and not let distractions drown it out
Because it's got a message nobody can live without
And the message is simple, a common principle
And it is this list:
"Be sure to live like you won't see tomorrow,
"Run like you've got someone important to follow,
"And be sure to love and show mercy like you've got no pride to swallow."
Yes, live like this, live for today
Though I can't promise things will go your way
But one thing's certain
If you do this your curtain call
Shall not fall too soon
Your story will be told for generations under the moon
At least I hope that's how it is
That's just what I've been told
Maybe I'll feel different once I've actually gotten old
I want to be remembered
Don't let me be forgotten
Please tell about my world of blue grass
And how my fingers were always cold
Tell them that I did my best to love and be kind
Tell them all the story of how I tried, mind
The fact the words didn't always come out right
I may be a wordsmith, but let's face it
I'm very pretentious and imperfect
Pretentious is not a word to take lightly
Because it actually is a trait that hides the fear inside
Failure and fear of rejection covered by cockiness and 'perfection'
Idealistic words hiding the shame for myself
Because I don't love me, just like everybody else
We're all just trying to make it in this cruel, material world
We're all in the mud, trying to listen to the voice you recently heard
Something about living for today and living like you'll die
Which you will; that's why you must strengthen your ties
To the people who'll go later, so they'll think
Think of you and reminisce on the times they miss
Of your smiling face and the sugar coated words
That fell from your mouth to the earth
Poisoning the land because you can't the things you've said back again
Oh, there I am again, so very pretentious
Acting as if you're worse than me
Even though, in the end, we're all the same
Man, woman, gay, in between, straight,
Smart, dumb, old, young, color of skin or weight
Does not matter in the end of all things
Whatever god you believe in does not mean
You won't die in the end and that your body
Won't become a part of the dirt one day
That's how we're the same
We're all going to die and-
Oh. I said too much again, with my imperfect mouth
Sorry. I suppose I shouldn't have come out
I just think far too much about the grand scheme of things
Wondering what tomorrow will bring for me
Obsessed with my future and legacy
Now maybe you will wonder too
I'm sorry I thought too much
I'll see you when we make our final adieus