As I sit and wonder why I ever gave a damn.

Why I cried about your silence.

Why I ran towards your distance.

Why I sit here in the corner and write.

Write about how amazing and how perfect I thought you'd be.

How when your eyes met mine I felt a spark of affection.

Or when we touched your body had an instant connection.

Or the heat your body gave off that made my body quiver.

A certain shock that I felt when you said my name. 

I felt secure, loved, understood.

I felt w h o l e.

I thought you were the one that go me the most.

Who loved me the most.

I guess I was wrong huh?

Behind the smile...

Behind it all were lies.

Lies that I hoped I could change to the truth...

Seems like only yesterday I was writing this letter to say that it was too late..

- Jay..