I lost all emotion the day that I lost you.

It's an eerie feeling,

A damning emotion to watch the colors fade away.

An incomprehensible feeling of hollow regret,

Not that I could actually feel it.

It was more like I knew how it should feel.

But how can you know what something feels like,

When you haven't felt it,

When you can't feel anything at all.

I guess I'm lucky,

To have been spared the pain of loss,

The pain of regret and the fear of abandonment.

But is that a win?

I wish I felt your loss,

Or anything at all really.

I wish I felt the pain,

So that I could grieve and move on with my life.

But here I am,

Almost three years to the day,

And I still haven't grieved,

And I still feel nothing.

Too bad for me I guess.