"I love you Grandma!" I said hugging her knees
Little me knew her value even then
Her warm hugs
Her white hair
Her eyes that squinted when she smiled
That nose that every Ramsay shares
I have that same smile
I have those same brown eyes
I wear that nose proudly now thought I didn't always
I wonder if my hair will turn white like hers did so early
"What would I do without you Grandma." I said as I laid in bed
She was a nurse and knew just how to make me better
My dad got no sick days as a kid
She took care of everyone
My Great Grandmother when she was dying
My aunt before the car crash and the brain tumor
My mom and dad
My sister and me
"You're a life saver Grandma" I said as I closed the door and ran to class
She drove me to acting
She always supported me
She never missed a show
Until that cold January
"What will I do without you Grandma." I cired when I found out
We didn't have much time left until she wouldn't be around.
The cancer was taking over after three long years
I still remember what I cired while blinded by my tears
"He doesn't need another angel! I need her more down here.
God can live without her! I can't if she's not here!
What's the use of praying when He won't listen to my plea?!
I curse the one responsible for taking her from me!
Where are the miracles I heard about that push away death's door?
If anyone deserves it I know it would be her!"
"I can't live without you Grandma!" I cried those next hundred nights
It seemed like such an impossible fight
A part of me was missing
I felt empty inside
Everything was grey
And it hurt seeing my face in the mirror every day
Her's, but not
I miss you so much Grandma, but I know you understand
I found a way to live again
I'll keep my promise and make you proud
You wouldn't have it any other way.
I can't live without you Grandma, that much is true
But you'll always be here with me
And with that, I'll make do.