I Don't Want To Go Home
Once upon a time
A story reborn again and again
Stood a girl whose heart was empty
And eyes full of unshed tears
Her arms open to the darkness
And voice that could only cry out the words
“I don't want to go home.”
She reached and reached
Yet continued to cry until she fell with those words on her lips
“I don't want to go home."
“I don't want to go home.”
Suddenly she was awaken
There above her stood a boy
A boy no older than her
With a grin that could only match his shadow
Eyes that told amazing stories
Stories that told of freedom
These eyes are what led her to the window sill
Those stories are what made her say the words
“I believe I don't want to go home.”
And his smile is what made her jump
But instead of flying she was falling
Deeper and deeper into the dark abyss
Swallowing her whole
She watched the boy with his shadow disappear
The words echoing in the distance
“I believe I don't want to go home.”
Time seemed to stop
Everything just stopped
Her mind even her heart
Then a scream crawled out of her
Two glowing cat eyes appeared
Then a slow wicked grin
It's expression held questions
It held promises
Finally, it opened its mouth
“Who are you?”
Her heart pounded against her chest
“Why are you here?”
Her palms began to sweat
“You shouldn't be here.”
Her mind was in scrambles, and then
“I don't want to go home.”
“Then what's stopping you.”
She just repeated her words again and again
“I don't want to go home.”
A flash streaked through the sky
Her eyes watered
Her breath hitched
And then the silence was filled
Trees shuffled, birds sang
And whistling filled the air
Opening her eyes she saw gold
She was on a yellow brick road
Time speed up as she walked
The breeze picked up
The trees swayed
Back and forth, back and forth
Almost like a lullaby
Until she heard a howl
Fear began to roll in like the oncoming storm
She picked up her pace
Her eyes searching the area
And arms holding herself as if to protect her
A crack rang through the air
Time froze
The breeze stilled
Her heart stopped
There behind her was a wolf
A wolf with a nasty breath
Its eyes full of arrogance
And a grin of only a successful hunter
“Where are you off to?”
She turned to flee but was pushed back
“Oh no no don't leave.” He growled
“Please leave me alone.”
“Now why would I, little human?”
She shook in fear and coward away
This wolf holding her past in his paws
He taunted and taunted
She cried and cried
“I don't want to be here.”
“I thought you didn't want to go home.”
Fear turned to rage
“I don't want to be here!”
Her body thrumming with power
Her bones shaking in anger
Her heart wanting blood
She yelled and screamed at him
He fell and whined
Becoming smaller and smaller
Then in its place stood a puppy
The puppy’s eyes said it all
“I don't want to be here.”
The storm passed, and now the sun was saying goodbye
The crickets chirping, frogs croaking
And the girl walking with exhaustion on her shoulders
Every event wiped her energy clean off
In its place stood a lonely girl left with her thoughts
Very dangerous thoughts
But one was good
She defeated the wolf
Pride swelled within her
Pushing her to continue
Until she fell to a stop
In front of her was a house
So inviting, so beautiful
And so lonely just like her
She went into the home
Warmth soaking into her and fragrance wrapping around her
She crept in calling out
There was no answer
She appeared in a bedroom
Her tired feet had led her there
Her body dragging her to the bed
And her mind shut off
Slowly she drifted away with one thought
“I don’t feel alone anymore.”
A growl sliced through the air
She jumped up from the bed
Three bears loomed over her
A big bear, a small bear, and a baby bear
“What are you doing in my home?”
The girl stuttered an apology
This house was not alone
Three bears owned the home
She was the intruder
She had broken in
She was the lie
She did not belong
She was not home
This was not her family
Yet she felt the same as if it was
She felt as though she did not belong
“I don't want to go home”
The big bears' eyes softened
The small bear smiled gently
And the baby bear giggled
“This is your home now.”
Their soft arms welcomed her
They cared for her
They hugged her
They loved her
They welcomed her as if she was always there
Her heart swelled
She was no longer alone
She had a family
But this was not her only family
She had a family before this
Who also love her
She leaves the bears with a goodbye
Continuing her journey on the yellow brick road
Her journey is long
Her story is being told
Her heart is healing
She is no longer afraid
She is no longer alone
She is no longer trapped
She is free
She is who ever she wants to be
She is courageous
She is loved
She is special
She gets a wish
A second chance
Which only Oz can grant
And there he appeared
His eyes held wisdom
His smile held warmth
He was a fairytale
And he only grants one wish
A wish he has given to her
“What do you desire?”
Her heart beat faster and faster
Her hands shaking with anticipation
Her mind flowing with wishes
But it stops on one
Only one
Her fairytale ending
“I believe I want to go home”