I don't close my eyes
I don't close my eyes anymore
and "fall" in love.
Every step is measured and
taken slowly and
revised and edited and
that was a mistake
loving you
or feeling something for you was a mistake.
I never really loved you.
And that is my blessing. You were not the man I wanted to love.
You were not the man I wanted to fall in love with.
You were not the man I wanted.