i didn't even have to turn my head
our teeth chatter more than our tongues
but silence isn’t the enemy
it cradles me like a newborn who’s not afraid to scream for what she wants
for what she needs
a raincoat keeps out the water but lets in the wind that carved caves bursting with invisible life
we pass by and ignore it,
a second and
third time but we are blinded by our “plans for the future” and led astray by our confidence
confidence will help you stand
then knock you to your face and run away laughing leaving you naked and dying
death isn’t the enemy
it brings us to tears making us magnets of embraces and people try to carry slivers of our pain that we tug of war back because it’s “mine and you can’t understand”
nothing understands the splinters in your souls or the bruises in your mind like nothingness
it’s the only listening ear with no bias or agenda that uses your loss to sway you to its side
the forest is my nothingness that shadows me and I blend with it as I climb the cliffs and stumps to scream or to kiss
to love is to feel
to hate is to feel
indifference is nothingness
when indifference threatens you don’t raise a gleaming sword to stay and fight or pull the trigger to make it stop
don’t even pause to put shoes on your feet before you run
flee from that which is too strong to beat
run to feel something