I’d tell you how I feel

If I felt something.

But lately,

There’s been nothing there.

I don’t feel sad.

I don’t feel hurt.

I don’t feel broken.

I feel nothing.

I’m numb.

Empty.

Spent.

Worn out.

It’s like the last three years are worth nothing.

It’s like I spent all my time hoping for something that could never happen.

I can’t believe I did that.

I let myself fall.

And I loved every second of it.

Until I realized…

You wouldn’t be there to catch me.

 

You never tried to warn me.

You never tried to tell me things wouldn’t be the same.

You let me fall.

And for what reason?

Because I give you what you want?

You want sex,

Go fuck a girl back at college.

You don’t need me for that.

You want head,

Go ask a girl at college.

You don’t need me for that either.

Did you ever even love me?

Did I ever mean as much to you as you say I did?

 

Well, did I?