I am who I am not

I am tired.

Tired of holding my tongue

at the thoughts

my mind shouts.

What do I want to do?

Who do I want to be?

How will I make money?

I do not know.

And I am tired.

Two phrases that have

shredded my

happiness

into

mangled

pieces

of

stripped

leather.

Dry,

wrinkled,

cracked

and at a point 

that is beyond

stretching.

I am sad because

I have let people down.

I have let people rule my actions.

My fear of making 

the wrong choice

has lead me

to not only

block out

the light

but

hide

in shadows of

yesterday.

I do not know.

I have not since..

I cannot remember,

perhaps

when 

I thought

life

was 

real

and

dreams

were

not.

It makes no sense,

or at least to my 

gaurded mind.

The strive for money and

material

things.

Yet I do it.

I play a stupid game

I follow a certain crowd

and I speak a certain

way.

I am what I am not,

for the world is shady

and everything has a shadow.

I am not tired of the sun

that guides my day

nor the moon that

dances by night.

I do know the feel of cold

slapping at my neck

and of the heat

that betrays

my sweat.

I am not tired

of the books that are

written

or the flowers growing 

tall.

I do know the loveliness of music

that lulls in the summer air,

as well as the 

sweetness of a 

mountain spring.

All of these things

I am, I know,

but I don't 

and they keep

far away

from me.

In dreams I do not sleep

because 

my body escapes me.

She glides

through time

like a slippery snake

on an unwinding road.

She is never eager to 

return to an ignorant era.

Where bones and paint 

are what everyone

wears.

But she does

and when I awake,

I am tired,

and I do not know.

This poem is about: 
Me

Comments

JoletaJones

Amazing!! :)

ChMaEve

I feel so the same... This is very touching and dear to my familiarity.

JuliOste

I love this so much :)

Armonief4

What was your motivation?...

cheyanimal14

I was riding home on the subway and was thinking of my significance in the world and of my upbringing and how each person is so incredibly different.

Lana Dawn

This was brilliant. I can def relate.

 

My fave lines were:

I am what I am not,

for the world is shady

and everything has a shadow.

 

Stunning :)

 

Lana

cheyanimal14

Thank you so much! It honestly means a lot to me

Mayasaki

Beautiful, I feel exactly the same. Much Love.

Sammyy

Beautiful, your poems always have messages to convey...... :)

smoreluv17

wow, incredible <3

ReneeJereca

I cam relate with this so much! I love how simple, but deep this is.

abbyy_duanne

I love this

niegell the superhero

i really like feel what you wrote it speaks my emotions straight to my soul  

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