Trying to find who I am

Has never been more difficult;

With depression and anxiety,

Sexuality and gender

How will I ever figure it out?

My name is Alex,

I know that much for sure

But over this past year I’ve seen

I don’t know much else about Alex.

They’re 16 and they like writing,

Their best friend is Laura and she’s amazing,

But what else?

They read a lot,

They listen to music

They play video games.

That’s all very basic knowledge…

Nothing like the inside of their mind.

They used to self-harm

Their body is covered in scars.

Most importantly this year,

They’ve been trying to learn;

“How do I be myself?”
“How do I love myself?”

They’re still trying to find answers

Through music, through writing;

Through just being.

Trying to find who I am

Has never been more difficult;

But I am trying, and I am learning.