How I Felt
I never thought there'd come the day
When I'd say what I need to say
Normally I wouldn't do it this way
But I need you to be understanding me right
Because there's fighting in my heart making me struggle for what's mine
Mine as in what I had
spending time that was precious
You are the thing I can't do without.
I know without a doubt
I'm without myself when you're on another side
I tore myself apart trying to forget
Something I can't even want to regret
This is why I'm so tired
And there's no one I can confide
So I'm gonna write about it you bet
I used to melt At the sight of you
Thinking of everything I wanted to do
But also loving the acceptance
Knowing I didn't have to live in repentance for being myself
You sent an arrow through my heart
I know you'll make me fun of me for that
It's just sometimes the truth is dumb
but I'd rather tell you about it than be numb
You won my heart over so I'm not able to accept when you say it's just over
It's hard not to over think when you're Bored
I'm not gonna lie the thoughts without you made me question life
But I don't want you to miss me like the last guy
So for now I'll dream of a kiss in drugged bliss
Its when i say shit like this
That I deserved to be dissed
Regardless of whether I’m missed
I gotta live as I see fit
That’s a bid I’ll give it all to
Cause if the shoe fits
keep your wits not everything is made to be worn
Can't say I didn't warn myself