Are you still hurting from all the pain?

How you been doing?

Or holding up?

I still don't know how to talk to you

but, I still think about you whenever it rains

Nothing romantically,

Or physically

I just-

deeply hope you're okay

Hope you have someone to lean on til this day

I can promise you that there are nights I cry about things

we both had no control over 

or how I've been trying to recover

I had to over come a lot of my struggles and insecurites

and I did that for me

I've learn to love myself that feels magical

I finally spiritually feel free

In the end of it all,

You've been the one in back of my thoughts to everything I do 

and I'll admit I hate that

You've become a constant reminder of who I use to be 

and I still think I need to be her

I realized that part of me died

That was the end of a broken record we once shared.