Dear Future HIM (Whom Ever you are),

I have prayed for you,

I've even brought you up to my boy’s,

And all they tell me to do is wait,

But see it hard to do so,

Mainly because I am very impatient,

there’s a fear I would like to bring up,

It’s crazy only because I don't know you quite yet,

But if I am waiting on you then it’s probably because Isaac told me to do so,

So thank him,

First in formals hey i'm Kathryn,

And my fear is you,

I fear that you will be exactly like HIM,

HIM being my father,

And what I mean is well yeah ABSENT,

So if you don't ever get to read this well I just wasted my time,

Not only that but I will just continue to pretend that you will shortly come,

But if you do read this,

Then this is what I mean,

I fear you missing out,

Not physically but more so emotionally,

I fear that one day I’ll go from being stranger to someone you love,

I fear that one day we get into a argument and I tell you I hate you as if I was 13 again,

And I fear that our I hate you will be our only ways to say I love you,

Yet somehow I am here waiting on you,

I am willing to put guys to the side till I am sure I met you,

And if I met you then I probably drop the JESUS thing on you,

Because I fear that our only way to a healthy long lasting thing will be through HIM,

And if you disagree then I really don't understand why you are reading this,

Because that would mean your not HIM,

I fear that your love for me would start to fade when I start to fade,

The song thinking out loud plays and plays in my head,

Because when everyone's memories of me are gone,

Will your love for me be strong enough for you to remember,

I fear the lost of words through many of our conversations,

I even fear of bearing a fruit into such a cold world,

Yet I am here confessing all of this to you,

Because you have shown me that my fears aren't you,

If not the devil that speaks into my ears and tells me to fear you,

Because the HIM I was talking about was not a physical HIM,

If not the LORD himself,

I have fallen in love with someone who I fear greatly,

I’ve also fallen in love with someone who I yet have met,

My love for HIM is not patient because there is no such thing as time when it comes to HIM,

My heart continues to battle for HIM because just like that he did the same for me,

I am in love with a man who has promised me that he will sent me you,

On his own time because right now he’s too busy showing me how to be loved,

As for you,

I will wait on you till the LORD is ready to pass my heart to someone who would love and cherish it just as he did,

So dear God in front of all of my brother’s and sister’s I promise to put no guy above you,

And to wait till you show me it’s right…….

So Dear Future HIM (Whom Ever you are),
I have prayed for you,
I've even brought you up to my boy’s,
And all they tell me to do is wait