Go ahead and breathe that sweet nectar
So sweet that it poisons the throat as it goes down
and a pain unknown or understood arises
This is seen but not felt
Or should I say felt but not seen
For a seen pain causes reaction
But a felt pain is hidden
for many will not see this pain
You will not see this pain
Ripping inside your deep mind
Going to new heights just to find
A closer way to God, all high
But that pain lurks deep inside
But I cannot relate it to you
Trying to see through you
Trying to verbally state my pain without the use of words
Trying to speak to your mind without deliberately shaking you
And grabbing
And attacking
All these things which I wish to do
But now I cannot
a chance had gone and come
And a new path for you has begun
prior arrangements are now invalid
And now you don't see the aftermath its
so sad to see
How quickly we change from one to 3
from 0 to 60
Emotions sporting and running
Free and and wild
Rampant like 70s concerts
Or spreading like the plague
A dark black death
A dark feeling in your chest
Ohh this feeling of angst
Of unwantedness
Misunderstanding
State it
Just say the word
A word filled with eternity
A word filled with intensity
Explain it to me
How?
I cannot explain it to myself
Let alone you
But if I state it to you
you will understand
But i can't quite name it
I don't know if its envy or some sort
Or lust
Or just a lack of love
But its deep in my guts now
I feel it rumbling
Like the ocean floor before the storm
I feel it shaking
Deep within my core
But I cannot stop it
My words act as a seismograph
Flicking up and down
Lower and higher
As I resist the urge to explode and just lie there.
Regret.