Remember your first?
No, not the first person you had sex
with, the first person you fell in love with.
They say you remember them
forever, well I don't.
Or at least I wish I didn't.
I wish I didn't remember the way
way it felt when he held me.
Or how insane he drove me.
It was like I was high off of his
cocaine, and I could never come down.
I wish I didn't remember his voice,
or how he would kiss me.
I wish I didn't remember him
seducing me out of reality.
I wish our souls were never intertwined.
He made me feel like I was in Neverland, where
time never goes, and you could do
whatever you please and go wherever
So here's to the firsts.
Here's to the one who almost
made me believe in love.
-Monique Irisa Smith