“You must fake it to make it,” this is what you taught me
With a façade of a family, something no one else could see
To all others you were a great parent, at least that’s what they believed
But to me you were evil, forcing me to always concede
To give up friends you don’t like, but they were who I would require
To do the activities you wanted because that meant I would be what you aspired
On the outside you bragged about my good grades and many activities
On the inside you screamed of the bitch I am and my stupidity
It is the screaming and bitterness that makes you remain alone
Every man only leaves you, knowing you’ll never provide a happy home.
What kind of monster calls their 15-year-old daughter a whore?
Or lets their mother hold her down, so she could get more hits in than before?
Tells their daughter to leave every day of her life,
But when she tries to go, bombards her with words like knives?
You let me know that because you had me you are miserable
That I stole your youth, disappoint you, and make your life dismal
I only had you, you knew that, no sign of my dad
All I wanted was a parent that truly loved me, something I never had
And at 17 I moved out because I couldn’t take any more battery
Little did I know, that was just an invitation for you to take all you had given away from me
At 18 I came to you, once I had nothing
Not asking for any help, but something even more aggravating
I told you to keep everything, I just want your love and acceptance
With tears in my eyes, I begged, please mom, yet you showed no penance
Now I just want to thank you, for all you taught me
Of the miserable, soulless, bitter, mean person that I have the potential to be
You hate me because I’m different from what you wanted me to be
But everything I am, I am because I want to be FREE!
And yes I work full time, struggling to get by, walking to and from everywhere
Yet it is all worth it, because where you are at, I will never be there
I do not want to be fake and I will not turn away from fun!
I refrain from yelling and go about my life, not trying to hurt anyone
I was bullied so much at school, then I came home to you
All the words you and they said, is something I never want to do
I want to love unconditionally and build up my fellow man
No one should feel as I did, like a fuck up, feeling damned
When I see the slits on some ones wrist, I will not smack them like you did me
I will do the opposite, tell them they are not worthless! And they can be free!
Thank you for showing me the wrong way to live…
I am now happy and free from the persecution I felt as a kid
And now I just want to spread love and light into the world
All thanks to the perspective you gave to one sad little girl