The pressure hammers hammers hammers down on my head.
Dreams of a different world drown me in bed.
Images flash like screenshots, like the flashes on the cameras
That lie for what they capture when those images are placed
On a desktop dragging through space
To land on a site that defines who we are
Better versions of ourselves because that's what we beg
The world to see.
Seeing has become overrated.
Lasik informs which latex prevails in random sex.
Silent sex since we don't know eachother
We are alone together. Competing, always fighting.
To win best looking since you like what you see
And if you see me and like it you won't be able to fight it
That's as close to commitment as it goes
Though single is what my page shows
My show, starring me. Ha! You don't understand what you see.
I'm green because I saw your picture with that girl
That girl I don't know and I can't make out--did you two make out--her face.
I couldn't see it under the layers
of shit we put all over ourselves.
The push-ups to push up our ranking on the scale
Accessories and make up that make up a new person
And now we've tricked you all into believing that in our hearts
We want to feel apart
From everything we were born to be.
But, what if we couldn't see?
We'd have to hear.
Not to the music, the reminders, the beeping.
Listen to my words and the truth they are keeping
In my words, I exist. In my words I am real.
Hear with my words to feel what I feel.
A memory of the house my mother kept me in.
Before I breathed the world, I was my truest form
Not a girl who has been torn
from the meaning of "woman" and the strength that that entails.
Instead I see bodies for sale.
Even when there's no price tag, the price is their hearts.
And I hope and I hope that words will set me apart.
A parade will commence of girls who trust and love
Have you ever made Barbie stand? She can't on her own.
A woman with that much pressure can't on her own.
But if you line up all the Barbie's and all of Barbie's friends, you can balance them just right.
And suddenly they can.
What if we all stood like that? Balancing, limb by limb.
Help to heal our hollowed hearts instead of our skin.
And listening, GOD JUST LISTEN, to who you want to be.
Write it out and read it out. Forget artificial debris.
We are here to be our best, that's not bullshit it's solid fact.
Hear my words, provide your own, and here we'll make a pact.
No matter what we see we will remember to hear
The words we say inside ourselves whose meaning is honest and real.
Your purpose is strong and unwavering.