Why does this always happen
Am I meant to be happy?
Are you punishing me?
I've learned my lesson
I'm having an attack
I never thought about what ifs
Till everything came crashing down
Now everything is a what if
I'm having an attack
Should I make a move first?
Should I be the one who ends everything before it begins?
Should I wait and see if he is the one?
The one who finally proves me wrong
The one who says sweet words and means them
The one who won't lie to me
The one who keeps his promises
The one who won't act out
The one who will stay by my side
I'm having an attack
I can't go through this again....
I can't show my family how I feel
If it goes south....
I'm never showing my face to them again....
I would have to move..
I'm having an attack....
I can't think this way again ...
Not again....
I'm having an attack....