Worn eyes look through their own reflection.
With gel she tames wild red curls.
Nora steadily powders each feature,
Desperately masking true beauty.
We don’t recognize this woman in
My eyes turn to a silent room where
Our son, Samuel still dreams on his pillow.
Each breath more peaceful than the last, until
The sun dares to end his slumber.
Its light shines too bright through
Moments later I see a touching sight
Mother and son, their embrace so tender
I extend my hand to join our family’s moment
Something stops me before my skin touches theirs
I can’t reach through
Yet they know I long to be there,
The feeling can’t be shaken.
I try to whisper my apologies
Try to show I care.
My voice will never sound on their side of
The knowledge of this fact is so cold
Though I watch, I am never a part
I replay each moment I see over and over again
These memories should include me
But all I’ll ever have is another life recorded through
I regret that fateful day
When I betrayed two people
For just one whose lust was too strong.
Wife and son pushed me away, so
I’ve been watching their lives through
Nora and Samuel longed for me; I knew their secret.
Blinded windows could not conceal
In the heart of our home—my connection
A tiny red light flashed warning, but neither noticed
From my new home far away, I could peer through
The pain has become unbearable
They miss the man I used to be, strong and faithful. Not
Who I am now. Just Tom.
They wish to let go of a life so torn with infidelity
This can never happen until I look away from
My beloved are better off alone.
They don’t need this sad, broken man.
My will is not strong enough to let go,
But I have no choice.
My connection is threatened
A hurricane forces Nora and Samuel to evacuate;
I watch the love of my life and my only child disappear from
The weeks drag on
I wait for their return to a once lively home.
Anxiously imagining the new memories they will make
But nature has other plans, with its harsh winds.
In a moment
God’s most brutal storm
My heart stops, my body is frozen
One gust of wind has destroyed what took me years to build
Slowly, I lift my eyes from the blackness and see
Just outside these four walls there is life
A happy couple, dogs, a family on that side of
Tentatively I rise
As my eyes struggle to take it all in
I see everything I’ve been missing
Life went on, people fell in love, happiness was found
While I wasted away, obsessed with