Fruit Presupposes Fruition
i.
Osmotic processes do not shield the irony
and yesterday
when i returned from the bane of my existence and the meaning of medieval torture
(exaggggggeration)
i saw a little baby bird
baby birds do not fly
don’t scud
trailing the d-d-duh loosely beyond their tongue
they cheep and hop and fall out of nests
but no,
they do not fly.
ii.
thoughts imbue a peculiar water
the osmosis incomplete without.
as an IV dripped fluid languidly through my arm
i wondered
indolent
irises savoring the umbra behind eyelids
awaiting a redolence away from a hospital
whether the salt that infused my brain
would ever be worthy
of paper
iii.
should you
(u?)
my dear reader,
overwhelming in patience,
find a lack of conjunction between topic and topicality
poem and poem-ality
(as i laugh at my own joke)
may i remind that one may not see the fruits newly sowed
reproduce into brilliant showers of heavy-hanging pears
ripe apples
dripping nectarines
for many years longer
i see that bird now
a wing broken,
lying,
dead in a puddle
a fearful moment before the needle jammed
and fluid ran into my arm
and let me remind - yes, once more -
that fruit does not come to fruition
until one has grown
digested the newness of existence
and understood.
iv.
so perhaps there is one moral
one end to this rambling parable and epitaph to a mourned sparrow
just a singular, although you may see more
and i truly welcome it:
inspiration is not a thing.
it is not a someone, a some-book, a some-poem
it is an idea unrealized
and sometimes,
(like a memory that must be jogged-)
an external object brushes by
and not unlike a dustpan collecting dust
the idea arrives nudged
traveling to mouth
leaving
and that,
my dear reader,
is inspiration.