Fresh Start

I‘m holding the keys, I'm driving this car.

Played games, pushed me way too far.

I’m setting higher standards, and raising the bar.

New beginning for me, mind my business from afar.

On my own, 10 toes down, not on your trail or your radar.

Getting back to being me, a new me, a fresh start. 

I have to admit, I was led astray, I got lost in the dark.

Lived in my flesh, played in dirt, fed my worst parts. 

Walking out was easy, staying was the hard part. 

Like a Phoenix, I am free, no longer last, I’m first in line.

It's already written, no longer just existing, I’m alive, victory is mine. 

No longer riding runaway trains destined to derail and collide. 

I have to admit, there were fun times, it's been a wild ride. 

Time to move on, just throw it all away, it stinks, it’s rotten from the inside. 

Letting go of what could have been, it was only a man made fantasy.

That fantasy introduced me to the worst of me, fed the codependency. 

That ugly part of me co-starred as the villian, but you co-wrote this horror movie. 

That ugly part of me is fired, evicted, I was not in good company.

Taking my power back to fix what was bent, but was never broken.

Retrain my mind to counter all the negativity that's been spoken, 

Avoid falling for the same wolf tickets and fools gold. 

I refuse to be bitter, taking the joy out of living allowing my heart to grow cold.

I don’t wish you ill will, I pray for his mercy on you, mercy on me. 

I’m going to hold it in the road, stay in my own lane, guided by the worth I see in me. 

Won’t be reaching out by email, letter, or phone, do not contact me.

I don’t know you, stranger danger, you don't know this new me.

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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