Free to Be Me
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That feeling of utter desperation
That pit in the stomach and weight on the shoulders
The feeling of complete relief when that is erased and satisfaction
of being complete again and whole once more
The secret no one knows
the truth that needs to get out and escape
sp that you can finally breathe again
it escapes from you heart to your brain to your hand
I write to be free of anything and everything
That moment of pride at looking down at the words that seemed to forumlate themselves
That heartbroken realization of finally figuring out that the world is a
scham
and you can feel the feebleness of your spirit
the feelings and hopes and disappointments that noone knows and when you finally
let it all out it feels as if heaven opened and your body was patched up so much
you can still feel the sting of the needles
the truth is that you really love that boy and the color of his eyes
or the truth that you don't hate yourself but you
hate the idea of growing up
I write for the freedom of myself
to feel everything and nothing all at once
I write because I do feel pain no matter how many times I
say I'm fine
but I still feel happiness and the truth is that my feelings can change
in the blink of an eye and if I don't write it down
I'll never remember
I write to feel something, to expierence magic
in it's purest form