I have an illness.

I have an illness you cannot see.

I have an illness you cannot see that is terminal.

I forgive.

 

I forgive you when you warn me.

I should have been more grateful.

I forgive you when you pull me.

I should have been faster.

I forgive you when you poke at me.

I should have done things better.

I forgive you when you run after me.

I should have been faster.

 

I forgive you when you raise your voice at me.

I should have stayed silent.

I forgive you when you jerk me.

I should have been stronger. 

I forgive you when you call out my errors.

I should have been more careful.

I forgive you when you seek out my weakness.

I should have been bolder.

 

I forgive you when you shout until I panic.

I should have been less afraid.

I forgive you when you yank me in public.

I should have kept up.

I forgive you when you threaten to embarrass me.

I should have kept you happy.

I forgive you when you recognize my lust.

I should have been more self-respecting.

 

I forgive you when you have no right or reason to shout.

I should have.....

I forgive you when you put your hands on my throat as a joke.

.....

I forgive you when you humiliate me for friendly laughs.

I...

I forgive you when you use my love to justify your sexual wants.

I should have...

 

Walked away.

Survived.

Needed to call you out.

Left.