Lost- that's what you are.

I've lost you completely, you're just so far away.

What do I do without you-

Now that you're gone, now that everything we had is gone too?

I never meant for this to happen,

I didn't want to lose you.

 

I wanted to be real,

I didn't want to use you or abuse who we both thought we were.

We thought we had it together,

You know, maybe we did.

But now we have to reveal everything we ever hid.

 

Lost feelings, they hurt

Because I know your feelings never changed,

This marriage between us was never supposed to be arranged.

It breaks my heart to see you so broken and distraught,

I know I ruined everything,

I know what I ought of done.

 

Should've. I hate that word.

Could've. How painful.

Would've. That's just not right.

Heartless is what I am.

I guess I was far too willing to fight.

 

I'll never lose those feelings for you- you were my first love.

I would still die for you, let you be above everything.

You deserve it.

 

Ruined. That was my fault.

Everything is messed up.

I should've stored my feelings in a vault.

I'm sick of me- so sick of who I am.

Because everything is not okay- it wasn't then, it's not today.

All I can say is I'm just so sorry.

 

Because I truly am.

 

Forgive me, I'm sorry.