Forever

For what?

Forever

 

And that’s when you let out

A breathless sigh

That you’ve been holding in

Since the beginning

Without even realizing

 

He is a tidal wave

That has been pushing against a dam

Ever since you first denied him

The pleasures of the skin

 

Pleasures that you deeply

Wanted to succumb to

But that your virtues

Prevented you from

 

And he, thinking that he could get to you

With enough time,

After a while

Uttered the words, “I love you”

Thinking that he had finally captured you fully

Searching your eyes for confirmation

 

You lit up

You smiled

You glowed

 

But that wasn’t enough for you

Because you’ve heard that before

 

Sometimes you believed it

Other times you doubt them

 

But never before

Have any of them said,

“Forever”

No, never that

 

Because saying,

“Forever”

Is somewhat ridiculous

Risky

Dangerous

 

Saying it is final

It is the ultimate test

To ensnare the heart of a girl

In an inescapable trap

 

You don’t know what forever is really like

Yes, it’s in the movies

Where it brings joyous tears

To your eyes

But you don’t know what it’s like

In reality

 

You’ve read about couples

Married for 57 years

But you’ve never seen it

 

And you want to believe him

With all your soul

With your entire being

So much so that you almost do

 

You almost thrust yourself

Fling yourself entirely

Into his maybe truth

His maybe lie

Because almost nothing lasts forever

Almost nothing is for sure

 

But you’ve been unknowingly

Waiting for this

Your whole life

 

So you start to believe him

And looking back on that moment

You reprimand yourself for not seeing it

For not seeing the glint in his eye

That devilish glint

 

You could have

(Maybe)

You should have

(Definitely)

Stared back at him

With all the courage you had inside of you

Mixed with only a bit of regret at that time

And said, “No”

And walked away

 

No looking back

No explanations

Avoiding heartbreak later on

 

But you were terrified

Scared that he would’ve been telling you the truth

And that you would’ve walked away

From happiness

 

So you stayed

Not knowing that as he at a later time

Tugged off your clothes

That he did in fact at that moment

Love you

But that it would not be forever