Finding Myself Again

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Willopenn Dr
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40° 10' 47.7912" N, 75° 2' 57.5088" W

Once a little girl, so careless and free,

Curious of life and all she could be.

Introduced to this world with no map or instruction,

Took a wrong turn down the path to destruction.

 

No way out, down a dead end street.

Living a life now of dishonesty and deceit.

Steal. steal. steal.

Isolate.

Run. run. run.

Self-medicate.

 

"There's a better way", people would tell me,

"You don't have to be so lonely."

Wanting to believe, but not comprehending how.

God, if only I could've seen then, how my life is now.

 

Institutions. Arrests. Overdoses. Can't. Quit.

Nothing left, not even my spirit.

Finally admit I need a change of direction.

I surrender to rid me of this sick obsession.

 

I couldn't have done it on my own, but luckily had assistance.

Striving to bring new meaning to my existence.

Seconds turn to minutes, and minutes to days.

I still remember how it felt coming out of that drug induced haze.

 

Like being reborn into this beautiful world over again.

Learning to live, break free from all chains.

Abstain. Grow. Love.

Listen. Believe. Rise above.

 

I can't even begin to convey my gratitude to be able to feel.

I've met people who love me, and the love is REAL.

Learning compassion and to love others back.

No longer stuck in a world of black.

 

Respecting myself, taking steps to improve.

Over 2 years now since the drugs were removed.

My journey to be better will never end.

We're in this glorious life forever, my friend.

 

 

Comments

Coppagad

`This was such a moving from the heart beautiful poem ! I think every teenager should read this and know there is always hope and a better way of living . Thank you for sharing for all to see and read and for i npacting me so positively and making my day a little bit better .

nicole.sylvester

Thank you! That makes me very happy that you enjoyed my poem! 

Mindfully

Wow, this poem is so authentic and straight from your heart. Thank you for your openness to being vulnerable and for sharing this with us all!

nicole.sylvester

Thank you for reading and for your feedback!

alymie

Love it.Congrats stay stong.

nicole.sylvester

Thank you!

Feb0593

This is such an awesome poem! Thanks for sharing Nicole. I hope other people young and old get the chance to read this and get inspired - and know there are people out there that love and support them! This is truly heartwarming! Keep it up!

nicole.sylvester

Oh thank you! I hope others get a chance to read this also and become inspired. Nothing makes me happier than seeing people, young and old, who were once struggling make it through to the other side to become better, stronger people.

redemma

musical and powerful, an inspiring story, thank you!

nicole.sylvester

Thanks! glad you enjoyed!

NJacana

A lump in the throat

A pinch in the head

Left undertended

Can paralyze the dead.

 

 

cathk122001

Very meaningful and honest poem from a strong young lady who has made me and the rest of her family so proud!!!! Hard worker with huge heart! Keep making us proud Nicole! ♡♡♡

nicole.sylvester

Thank you! I plan on it! =]

bilwaj

Beautiful poem there .... stay off the brain altering substances ..... stay high on life

nicole.sylvester

Thank you. Nothing better than the high from life!

Philadelphia

Woah, this poem really caught my attention. Gave me chills. Thanks for sharing!

nicole.sylvester

Thank you for reading!

sair29012

Honest, personal, and raw with emotion. Outstanding work

nicole.sylvester

Thank you!!

smithe

i absolutely love this! could definitely relate.

nicole.sylvester

Thanks!

Darlene_Mae

Absolutely love it, so much feelings in it! :)

nicole.sylvester

So glad you liked it! Thank you for reading

iluvwritingxoxo

this is SUPER SUPER good. once a little girl so careless and free... omg im in love with this poem

nicole.sylvester

Thanks! I put a lot of effort into wording my experience. Thanks so much for your feedback! :)

Silvia Taylor

This is just beautiful writing..I don't even know what to say. Many rounds of applause to you, very inspirational

nicole.sylvester

Oh, thank you soo much!

stcelestin

amazing

nicole.sylvester

thanks!

Beverly_Walker2212

Beautful, i almost cried, very beaurtful poem, so relatable, dfinaely very very good. I rate this a 10! :-)

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