Finding Hope in Darkness
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I’ll forget to breathe and forget there’s some purpose
Behind the broken scenes and the hope, so worthless
I’ll forget to think about the other people
Where they’re going, why they’re going, how they feel
Seconds later when I take the breathe I needed
My head will feel so light as my thoughts repeated
“You can’t get through life being so conceited”
“You shouldn’t even try, you’re sure to be defeated”
And I’m sorry to all of those who enjoy my presence
I wish my mind could define some kind of pleasance
Instead it’s locked up looking like there’s no way out
Instead I try to say nothing but the words still spill that damn doubt
I love everyone just as much as I don’t
I love everything cuz my brain just won’t
I can’t wrap these thoughts around the world so distant
Everything I feel turns out to be nonexistent
It did not used to be this way I used to feel
The happiness, the joy, the life that’s real
Until she came along and took every part of me
That may have been worth having
So I lead the life I’m living in this sweet despair,
The broken parts are healing, I can’t move just stare
Blankly at the memories that will always be there
As one foot chases the other and my mind calms down,
Remember I walk like everyone else, on the same ground
Got this little pebble ‘spossed to keep me here
Personal trebles make irrational fear
Where do you go when what you needed left you?
Where do you hide when there’s no one to go to?
And the person that you love says they loved you too
But it’s time to move on
So as one foot chased the other I began to notice
Not everything in life has got to be so hopeless
I think it’s important that we all know this
As we carry sublimity, in our numbed out minds and warn out feet
I’ll be here for you whenever you need me
Never forget it’s not as bad as it seems