Filterless

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In a world of other people,

Who am I?

In a world expectations,

Who am I?

So many different version of who I am

Friends, School, coworkers, family

I all show something different

Always looking threw a filter

But who am I?

 

To my friends

Outgoing, sympatric, approachable

I’m the one always there to listen

Tell me your problems and I’ll fix them

Everyone talks to me and I see no strangers

Putting everyone first, I keep myself guarded

 

To my teachers

Smart, logical, scientific

I’m the quiet kid in the back

The one who always does her work

Keeping my comments to myself

Trying to avoid conflict, I miss out on my passion

 

To my coworkers

Collective, organized, together

Taking notes and giving ideas

Volunteering when no one else does

Going that extra mile

Education about sustainability, I don’t even recycle

 

To my family,

Perfect, Strong, Knowing

The plan must be followed

Perfectionism will keep the 4.0

Someday I will be important

Trying to be everything, I end up being nothing

 

In a world of other people,

Who am I?

In a world expectations,

Who am I?

So many different version of who I am

Friends, School, coworkers, family, myself

I all show something different

Always looking threw a filter

But who am I when I’m alone?

Who am I without the filter?

 

In my room,

Weak, scared, fragile

Staring at the dark

Crying for hours

Waiting for come connection

Here I know that I am truly alone.

 

In the shower,

Loud, crazy, bouncy

Singing and dancing is why it takes an hour

Wrinkly fingers tells me change can happen

The calm smell of clean soap

Here I feel refreshed.

 

In the rain,

Screaming, cursing, furious

Saying what I want to the sky

Soaking wet, looking terrible

Vision blurry, water everywhere

Here I am free

 

How can I show who I am?

How do I unfilter reality?

My world is fake,

My life is fake,

My goals are fake,

I am fake.

I am filtered.

 

 

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