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Feeling Something New
I've felt nothing for all my life
I want to feel human so I use a knife
Crimson rivers pour from my skin
Every time I slice I can't help but grin
Pain is the only thing I can feel
In a world made of ice-cold steel
But when I see you for the first time
And see that smile with its perfect white shine
My heart pounds like it will burst out of my chest
So for now I'll sit on the ground and rest
In the corner, admiring your every move
To win your heart I must remove
These marks on my arm— some shallow, some deep
I can peel the scars off and place them in a heap
Then I'll l be worthy of your precious love
It will lift me up like wings from a dove
We can be together with no one else in the way
If someone steals you from me they'll become my prey
When I'm around you I feel something new
Usually this feeling takes some time to accrue
But for me it came in an instant, so fast
And without you my weak body won't last
My heart pounds so loud I can hear it's plea
Begging for you to come be near me
I look into your eyes and feel a thrill
The voices in my head are deafening and shrill
Every part of my body is calling for you
My facade of normality has been thrown askew
I can't contain these feelings within my mind
They're too powerful and loud to be confined
I try to get these emotions out through cuts in my skin
So I take my knife and do what I have been
I make sure my knife doesn't feel lonely
Like I make sure to do with you, my one and only
I hold you to my heart and make sure
No one else gets near you and you stay pure
They thought they could steal you from me
I killed them as I shouted with glee
They're all gone
You're only mine
You are my swan
They were a vine
Holding you back
But now they're all dead.