Deep throbbing inside my chest,

I feel like I can’t do my best.

I wake up like this all the time,

As my phone makes a chime.

They don’t understand it,

They think it’s a fit.

I want them to understand,

No, I need them to understand.

This isn’t the way I want it to be,

I want them to see.

To see that it’s not just a feeling,

That I do need healing.

I hate feeling this numb,

I don’t like feeling like a bum.

I used to be like you,

I had things to do.

Now…now I just feel empty,

I feel like I’ll be better this century.

Sometimes the pain goes away,

But it’s not long before I stray.

The feeling creeps back in,

But I know now to shove it in a bin.

Now I can feel like happy,

Or what it’s like to feel sappy.

I can be a “normal” person,

But there are times I will worsen.

I just need to know that I am okay,

That today is a new day.