Father And Dad Are Not Synonyms
Father,
You are
someone who
only cares about
himself. When I
was two, you
decided
that a
having
a family
was not for you. My mom picked up her
life and moved four hundred and seventy miles
away from you. As a young kid, I was too naive to see
the negative effects of you in my life. At six years
old, I dreaded spending the summer with you down
in Louisiana, but the court had ordered it. They did
not understand my situation. On weekdays you would
drop me off at my grandma’s at seven and pick me up
at five. Everyday she told me I was fat, I needed to eat less,
and I needed to fit into smaller clothes. She would then
proceed to tell me my mom was a horrible person. All the while
she would make up lies to back up her claims. The worst part was
you knew she did this but still dropped me off there Monday through
Friday. On weekends however, you and I spent time together, like
every little girl dreams. Instead of playing dress up, we went
to bars for the afternoon. You would meet up
with your friends inside while I was stuck outside
by myself because indoors was “21 only”. You
would have a couple beers… or ten. I am sure
you told yourself it was okay. It was not.
On the drive home you would swerve into
the other lanes. I was scared for my
life. On the off chance that you
didn’t go out drinking with your buddies.
We would sit on the couch in silence
and watch your shows. I was not
allowed to touch the remote. After a
half hour I would slink away into my
room to call my mom and tell her how much
I missed home. She wanted me to be
home; I wanted to be home. However,
the court decided I had no say in the
matter. The decision was yours. This was
my summer for twelve years, but
I turned eighteen in November. The
court is done making decisions regarding
my life, and so are you. I will never
spend time with you again. You had
your chance and now it is gone. I can not control that
you are my father but I can control who I call Dad. You
are not it. You never will be. This is my goodbye
With the utmost sincerity,
Avery
Father,
You are
someone who
only cares about
yourself. When I
was two, you
decided
that a
having
a family
was not for you. My mom picked up her
life and moved four hundred and seventy miles
away from you. As a young kid, I was too naive to see
the negative effects of you in my life. At six years
old, I dreaded spending the summer with you down
in Louisiana, but the court had ordered it. They did
not understand my situation. On weekdays you would
drop me off at my grandma’s at seven and pick me up
at five. Everyday she told me I was fat, I needed to eat less,
and I needed to fit into smaller clothes. She would then
proceed to tell me my mom was a horrible person. All the while
she would make up lies to back up her claims. The worst part was
you knew she did this but still dropped me off there Monday through
Friday. On weekends however, you and I spent time together, like
every little girl dreams. Instead of playing dress up, we went
to bars for the afternoon. You would meet up
with your friends inside while I was stuck outside
by myself because indoors was “21 only”. You
would have a couple beers… or ten. I am sure
you told yourself it was okay. It was not.
On the drive home you would swerve into
the other lanes. I was scared for my
life. On the off chance that you
didn’t go out drinking with your buddies.
We would sit on the couch in silence
and watch your shows. I was not
allowed to touch the remote. After a
half hour I would slink away into my
room to call my mom and tell her how much
I missed home. She wanted me to be
home; I wanted to be home. However,
the court decided I had no say in the
matter. The decision was yours. This was
my summer for twelve years, but
I turned eighteen in November. The
court is done making decisions regarding
my life, and so are you. I will never
spend time with you again. You had
your chance and now it is gone. I can not control that
you are my father but I can control who I call Dad. You
are not it. You never will be. This is my goodbye.
With the utmost sincerity,
Avery